Saturday, January 30, 2016

Changing Focus

I went on a walk today.
I wasn't looking for anything particular, just needed some fresh air.

I saw a flower growing in some rocks and it felt familiar.
"Bloom where you're planted."
I snapped a pic with my phone and kept walking.

I was bummed when I saw that it's out of focus though.
Nice clear rocks, fuzzy flower.
Typical!


Then it hit me:
"You're focusing on the wrong things."
LITERALLY.
I started blogging to find and to share inspiration.
I feel like sometimes I'm successful but mostly
I think I'm trying hard to be like other people.
I stopped blogging because it's stressing me out.


THE FANTASY:
"Look how cute my house is because of my incredible DIY talents!"
MY REALITY:
My house is usually a mess. I work full time and just want to veg out when I get home, not scrub toilets or make planters out of toilets.


THE FANTASY:
"Every meal I make is a picture-perfect masterpiece that my whole family loves!"
MY REALITY:
I hate making dinner. It takes hours of work for 10 minutes of eating and it rarely pleases everyone.


THE FANTASY:
"Look how skinny I am because of my herculean efforts to change my life!"
MY REALITY:
I'm tired. I want to sleep. And I ate potato chips for lunch yesterday.


THE FANTASY:
"Watching my little ones grow is so inspiring!"
MY REALITY:
I have 3 teenage boys. And sometimes they smell. But I love them.


My reality means trying to juggle work and kids and church callings and family outings and doctor appointments and panic attacks and allergy season. I feel like I don't have time to blog because it takes so much time. But I think I'm focusing on, and therefore blogging about, the wrong things.

So instead of just "tp tube crafts" and "cheesecake recipe" posts, you're going to be seeing more
"I survived a social engagement" and "Well, that didn't work" posts.


If that's your reality too, let's enjoy this ride together.
YAY, life!
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